“I had ten dealers at the same time”
“In the past, we would go on tour and people would give us drugs for free. For a while I managed to hold on, but then I couldn’t stop.”
Eminem wrote an essay for “XXL” magazine, in which he addresses, among other topics, his struggle with drug addiction.
Sober for 13 years, the rapper shares: “My addiction didn’t start right at the beginning of my career when I showed up. I only started using drugs at the beginning [of promoting the] the first album. And hard drugs only when I got famous. I was experimenting, I didn’t have a favorite drug. In the old days, we would go on tour and people would give us drugs for free. For a while, I managed to hold on, but then it became too [complicated] and I couldn’t stop.”
“For a while, I managed to hide my problem. But, before the [album] “Encore” , the addiction started to get worse. I was on vicodin, valium, and alcohol. I disappeared for a while and I didn’t explain why I left”, recalls Eminem, remembering an episode in which he acted with 50 Cent and G-Unit and the former had to replace him in an interview. “One of the presenters was talking to me and I couldn’t understand a word she was saying,” he recalls.
With the death of D12, a member of the band that was fronted by Eminem, his condition worsened. “When Proof died, I remember staying at home, lying in bed, and not being able to move. I took more and more pills and for two days I couldn’t walk. At that time, I had about ten dealers at the same time. Taking between 75 and 80 valiums a night is a lot. I was anesthetizing myself,” he explains.
At the moment, says Eminem, his goal is just one: “to always try to be a better rapper”. However, he acknowledges that he doesn’t focus too much on sales and tops: “I focus on people like Kendrick Lamar, Joyner Lucas, J. Cole and Big Sea, and what they do. Because they are also focused on being the best rappers.”